it's been rather quite long ever since i update my blog . well , latest updates is my grandma just passed away on sunday . i cannot believe she left already on that fateful day . my maid wanted to wake her up & shower her but she realized my grandma didnt move or neither breathing . therefore , she panicked & cried & woke all of us up . i tried not to cry . my mama went to call our family doctor to check on my grandma . the saddest day as she was pronounced dead . soon , the doctor left & my family called our relatives to tell the bad news . i went to take a shower & spent time crying in the toilet non-stop . relatives came & police officers came to ensure it wasnt a murder & in order for us to get a death certificate for my grandma . it was such a busy day too . some had to go down to the police station , some had to photocopy the death certificate and some had to buy flowers . i was at home beside my grandma & praying in the room . i didnt want my grandma to leave yet . i wanted her to try all those delicious foods before she passed away & i want her to see the outside world . also , i want her to know that im very sorry for being naughty when i was younger . i still remembered that she made for me a drink but i was angry at her so i threw the drink infront of her face & she still made for me another cup of drink . i feel so rude & i feel as if im a burden . im sorry if i made you suffer & giving you pain . all the close family members had to put flowers around her & kiss her . i wanted to cry again but this time i did manage . i just kissed her forehead . she was soon tied up & we went to the cemetery to bury her . said some prayers & put flowers at her grave . i hope God will give her blessings & i want her to be happy in the afterlife .